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[Feb. 4th, 2011|03:32 am] |
hmm...
this is so not fun... |
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[Aug. 20th, 2009|09:06 pm] |
SO
Life... gets better everyday...
Oooh... |
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[Jan. 11th, 2009|11:53 pm] |
Yea, it been a while. I was using myspase blogs..
My life has been quite hectick lately..After I graduated and got my liscense I moved into Krisrty's house.
Shortly after I started my instructor's training up at Blue Water College of Cosmetology. It is so much fun, yet soo demanding. I love it!!
I don't quite have a job yet. I am pretty much limited to the Marysville area until I can get my own car... So yea.. Well see what happens after I graduate AGAIN...
Latley I've been okay. It's hard living with a bunch of your friends.. It's hard trying to live a normal life just being single after 3 years. I want to just be able to fool around I gues.. But sometimes it feels like I need so much more...
i absolutely love my friends... We have quite the fun...
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[Jun. 11th, 2008|10:31 am] |
Just now I had the most unique feeling..
I've been letting a few things get me down, and it's getting really hard to deal with. I just don't know how to feel, or what to do.
So I decided to pray about it. I need help through this situation.. I asked for help. Then it felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. I stopped crying, and knew I was gonna be okay.
Still depressed, though..
So hard.. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2008|04:12 am] |
Soo this is it..
He beat my ass for the last time..
My dad put him in jail...
I've never been so hurt in my life.
All in the same day I find out he's been cheating on me? WTF
I don't need this.
I can't stand it anymore..
Plz... God, keep this monster away from me.. |
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[May. 22nd, 2008|08:25 pm] |
I was in a hairshow... It was pretty cool.
( More pics )
Everyone forgot about my birthday.. Except for Anthony and my parents..
Oh well.. What can you do?
So that's it for now.. |
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[May. 10th, 2008|05:02 pm] |
Sooo
I moved back to my parents house. I'm so happy I got out of my grandparents..
Anthony is getting everyone together to celebrate my birthday :) I love him!!
( Pictures... Duh )
uhhg... |
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[Apr. 6th, 2008|06:29 pm] |
My weakness is.. That I care too much.
I'm tired..
Great weekend. I stayed at Katie and Rodney's with Anthony. It's classic, the four of us. Katie and I on the bed being loud. Rodney and Anthony were distracted by us.
You see.. I laugh loud, when I'm really having fun..
We have such a good time. I miss it.
I seriously need to move out of my grandparents house. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2008|02:39 am] |
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It's hard for me to believe that I've been without him for over 6 weeks.
Oh well. I really need to just forget about it.
Which is what I've been trying to do, but you know.. It's super hard giving him up..
That's me tryin to make it..
( More pics of course )
That's it for now.
Im just kind of pissed off.
I need a job, I have to finish school..
What else is new? |
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[Feb. 8th, 2008|10:22 pm] |
Funeral the past two days and tomorrow. Then I get to go to a baby shower.. After that I'm headed off to Bonnie and Joey's.
On Sunday we are going downtown to the WinterBlast. That should be fun :) Haha I am so going to have so many bruises on my ass. I can't ice skate for the life of me!!
Hopefully I get my camera back from Anthony soon..
Uhg..
I really fucked things up between the two of us. I know it's for the better, though. I wasn't happy any more. I tried so hard...
( I love pictures! )
let me know what you think :-p |
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[Feb. 5th, 2008|06:47 pm] |
Soo..
I love Anthony so much, but he just isn't thinking right about the future.. I want to do good in life. We were holding each other back.
I still haven't talked to him... It kind of sucks.
I just wish he would get his shit together. It just didn't seam like he wanted the same things I did.. If he does, I guess he'll come around and show me he can do it.. I hope so. For his own good.
Almost done with school.. WooHoo..!
Almost done with probation.. WooHoo..!
The second I get a job I get a car.. Yeah!!
Life... |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2008|02:15 am] |
I go back to school in the morning. I've been out for a few weeks.
The past two weeks were pretty good. I spent most of the time with Anthony, and it turned out great.Of course we still had our usual fight on the day we depart. It's always so stupid we usually forget about it in the morning.This week has made me realize I love being with Anthony. Who gives a fuck about what anyone else says. We are going to make this happen!
My parents got me a digital camera for christmas. Now if anyone knows me, they know that I probably pissed my pants. But I didn't. I'm still excited about it. I've already taken over 200 pictures. Most of them are of Anthony and I haha.
Once I figure out how to work this program I'll have some pictures up :)
I should go to sleep... |
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[Nov. 28th, 2007|12:10 pm] |
Soo...
( New pics )
Comment and let me know what you think :-p |
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[Oct. 27th, 2007|07:48 pm] |
WRF??!?!
Why is it that when things start to get better, something happens to just crash everything down..
I hate Anthony's whore, I mean mom
She is seriously trying to send me to prison. I guess I'll find out when we get the warrent in the mail..
Fuck that bitch.
So if I just disappear for a while, you know where I am.
On another note.
I LOVE my job. I get along with everyone great, and it's just my job.
If things go right I only have 15 weeks of school left... Is that a long time? Haha I can't wait!!!!
WELL tomorrow is Anthony's birthday, I hope I get to see him.
Fuck it. I'm going to bed or whatever. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2007|07:16 pm] |
I'd like to not be yelled at.
Obviously I don't do enough for everyone else, and I've been thinking about myself too much.
I wake up, get ready and leave. I go to school and work. I ride my bike even. Between both places I am gone for the entire day. When I come home I am tired, I just rode my bike 5 miles to work, two miles to school, then 6 miles home. Between I am working.
I've had this job for 3 weeks. It has already become a problem.
According to my grandparents I haven't been home enough to clean the house as much as they'd like.
WTF?! Either I stay home and clean, or I have a job..
I'm just breaking down...Again..
I will never be good enough.
I will always come home and be told how much a piece of shit I am.
I miss Anthony.
I am going to try to go to bed.
Fuck this.
I want to go home!! |
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[Oct. 16th, 2007|09:03 pm] |
I'm tired.. Feel sick...
Anthony is coming down on Friday but I won't see him until Saturday. I have a feeling I am going to have no money after this..
Probation on Monday.. Everyone just pray for me.. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2007|07:45 pm] |
Life has been way too crazy...
I finally got a job. I work at Paco's. It's a Mexican restaurant. I bus tables..
I don't know why, but I can't seem to get away from working with Mexican food.. Taco Bell.. Now this?! I don't know.. I get all the free burritos I can eat. So I guess it doesn't matter..
Anthony has moved with his dad. I hate that he lives so far away but I deal with it.. At least he has a job out there. He is a dishwasher for some Chinese place.. He makes more money in one day than I make in a week. I imagine that's the only thing that matters.
Still in school. Only 400 hours left!
Yesterday my teacher came to me with a surprise. He brought me this national magazine called Modern Salon. Then he opened it and SURPRISE! Two pictures of an updo I did a few months ago, along with an article about me and how I did it. How cool is that? I didn't even know.
That will definetly help my portfolio..
I got my hair cut today at school.. I hate it.
I was supposed to only get it trimmed, but Carol fucked it allll up. So I cried for an hour while my teacher fixed it.
My hair went from being past my shoulders to my chin, and even shorter in the back.
All I wanted was a trim..
It took me over a year to get my hair as long as it was..
Needless to say I was, and still am to some extent, pretty upset.
I'll get over it.
I miss my Anthony..
I miss having friends...
I miss having a life.. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2007|05:01 pm] |
Welll...
Life could be better as always.
But at least I get to see my love every weekend.
that makes thing much much better..
I am almost done with school.. Well I have a few months, but still. I'm almost done.. Hopefully I can stay sain through all of this..
I don't know..
It sucks not having a computer...
It sucks not living with Anthony.
I wish I had a job.. Things would be soo much easier..
I miss my old life sometimes.
Sometimes I feel things were much better when I did drugs and lived at my parents house..
I don't know..
Fuuuck this... |
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[Aug. 19th, 2007|08:42 pm] |
I wish my sister would really ger her shit together..
I see her falling apart..
Uhg..
I'm sitting here.
The sexist man ever wants the computer now.
I love him! |
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[Aug. 1st, 2007|09:17 pm] |
Sooo..
Anthony is homeless and is not welcome at my house.
Figures.
School is getting better.
I've pretty much decided I am just not cut out to have friends..
Well, everyone I meet just seems to be the wrong person..
They will say one thing, then I go hang out with them and BAM! They are a fucking coke head.
Yeaaa,
That's life :) |
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[Jul. 24th, 2007|03:18 pm] |
I had two weeks off of school.
I went up north with my grandparents and Anthony took my computer. Then just gave it back yesterday.
Life seems like it is getting worse and worse everyday.
I still don't have a job..
Anthony barely has a job... Well he is going to jail. I am pretty much sure of that. Hopefully this will be the last time. I just wish he would get all this bullshit done and over with..
We met this couple at the bar yesterday. It was pretty cool. We played pool, then invited them over to the motel. Then we drove to their apartment and hung out for a bit.
Then Anthony lost his wallet..
So he is sleeping in my room. Hahaha..
I can't wait to hear about that one...
Ahk whatever..
On Saturday we went to this Mexican Festival in Detroit.. It was okay.
I think I am going to make Anthony wake up so we can go to TNTs and play pool... |
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[Jun. 21st, 2007|07:59 pm] |
Today turned out better than I thought it would..
Went and worked with Anthony in the ghetto of Detroit. He has such a nasty job. But I did get to break 2 windows and a fish tank. And basically whatever else I wanted.
If I could, I would go to work with him everyday. It's decent money...
BUUT I gotta go to school, and find a job that will work around it. I think I migh have a chance at Del Taco..... Who knows.
Ahk..
Why do I always get angry? I am sick of it. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2007|07:53 am] |
I am so sick of living here. I can't stand it anymore!!!
Yea, the first thing I wan't to hear in the morning is how much of a loser I am.
How they feel sorry for Anthony because I am ruining his life. Yet.. He is just as much of a loser as I am. And they know for a fact that Anthony isn't going to like me much longer..
Fuuuuck This. |
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[Jun. 16th, 2007|07:22 am] |
I've come to realize how spoiled I really am..
I mean, I have known this for a while... I'm just thinking about it.
Reguardless what I do, how much shit I get myself into or whatever.. There is always someone there.
I get bitched at all night for being a loser, then this morning I get a house key and $2 out of no where..
I don't have a job, yet I have everything I need. Plus some.
Anthony is busting his ass working two jobs so he can pay off his fines or whatever. Yet he spends the majority of his money on me.
I'd like to say I'm lucky... But sometimes I kind of feel bad... I am not the nicest person on this earth..
Do people just feel bad for me?
Ahk..
Soo I need to find a job. Again.
Haha, Anthony said if he didn't see me for a month he would have saved up enough money to have an apartment and a car. Geez.
Whatever..
It's time for school.. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2007|08:18 pm] |
| You Are The Girlfriend From Hell! | 
You're hell on wheels, which is sometimes a good thing.
But it's often a bad thing, as you usually leave your guy's head spinning.
Slow down, or else your relationship will end in a loud crash.
Or you'll end up with a guy so wild - even you can't tame him. |
Go figure..
We just had a conversation about this earlier I believe.. How do I change it and why is he still with me?
I love Anthony.. He says he loves me. I know he loves me. Which is why he is still with me. I guess that clears that one up..
I just need to listen more, and stop fucking up.
Got it.
My grandparents are pretty much on their last straw with me. As well as everyone else, I suppose.
All I can do is try my hardest and prove everyone wrong.
HAHAHAHA
Right.
I can't wait to finish school, and get the fuck out of here.
I have the first two weeks of July off.. I know I can't go to my parents house, that's just asking for trouble.. So Anthony is getting me a room for a week, while my grandparents go up north. Yes!! |
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[May. 29th, 2007|06:14 pm] |
Well fuck..
Anthony JUST got hit by a car.. On his way to come see me.
Sooo he's at the fucking hospital and I can't do anything..
Take my mind off things..
I want to scream!! |
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[May. 27th, 2007|02:50 pm] |
Hmmm
So I turned 21 and not one person showed up at my party..
It was alright, Anthony got out of jail the next day.
School is going great!! I love it.
Job at Taco Bell? I didn't get fired.. But I didn't quit.. What's going on here?!
I don't know.
That's my life..
I'm broke.
And
I ride a bike everywhere.. |
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[Apr. 27th, 2007|08:07 pm] |
Ahk..
School is going okay. My teacher really isn't a teacher. The class is seriously out of control, and they know next to nothing. What else do you expect from a free school, I guess..
I am tiiiired!!
Work is going okay. It's a riot. I am one of three white people. Great! It's fun, though.
Tomorrow I go to school at 8:30 and get out at noon. Then I work 5pm to 5am. At Taco Bell.
Sounds great! |
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[Apr. 21st, 2007|02:51 pm] |
Sooo..
I did it again! This is so fun.
| There's a 75% Chance That You Need Therapy | 
You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that.
Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out? |
I take that as a yes...
| You Are 80% Open Minded | 
You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself. |
HAHAHAHAHA
To everyone that really knows me....
This is great.
| You Are 82% Bitchy | 
Ouch, you've got a heart of steel, and you don't mind throwing out cutting insults to whomever you hate.
Those who know you well know not to mess with you. And those who don't know you well are plain scared of you! |
| Your Taste in Music: | 
90's Alternative: Highest Influence
90's Rock: Highest Influence
Heavy Metal: Highest Influence
80's Alternative: High Influence
90's Pop: High Influence |
| Your Brain is Orange | 
Of all the brain types, yours is the quickest.
You are usually thinking a mile a minute, and you could be thinking about anything at all.
Your thoughts are often scattered and random - but they're also a lot of fun!
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about esoteric subjects, the meaning of life, and pop culture. |
| Your Power Color Is Teal | 
At Your Highest:
You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.
At Your Lowest:
You feel in a slump and lack creativity.
In Love:
You tend to be many people's ideal partner.
How You're Attractive:
You make people feel confident and accepted.
Your Eternal Question:
"What Impression Am I Giving?" |
| You Are 90% Misanthropic | 
You are misanthropic to the point of being scary. In your view, people are a disease.
You may want to lighten up a little - before you become a super villain! |
| The Part of You That No One Sees | 
You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.
People feel like they really don't know the true you...
Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.
Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.
It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.
You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away. |
I looove it! |
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[Apr. 21st, 2007|01:38 pm] |
So I went to the interview at Taco Bell.
It wasn't really an interview. It was more like.. "When can you start?"
They called my old boss from the other Taco Bell, and he had lots of great things to say about me. He told them not to even bother making me a crew member, and start moving me up right away. So I'll be a crew trainer. WooHoo.
It is ridiculous how easy it is for me to get a job. I have definetly worked hard for it, though..
So Tuesday is going to be a big day for me. I start school at 8:30, get out at 4:30, and have to be to work by 5. Then I'll get out at 11. How did I manage to start school AND work on the same day? I don't know..
So I doubt I'll even go to the interview at CVS. For some reason I am just content with Taco Bell for now. They are paying me good.. And they will work with my schedule.
Sounds good to me.
Soo Uhh.. It's time for me to start thinking outside the bun again. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2007|10:16 pm] |
I am sooo mad at DOUG!
What.. We finally start getting close and you leave?! Once again!
Okay, okay.. I'm not mad. I am just sad.
Now who am I going to hang out with?!
Well, it's not like we really hung out anyway..
But still.
Shit.
I really need friends
I wish Marcy would talk to me... It's bad when your own sister won't even be your friend.. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2007|08:38 pm] |
I went to school today..
Possibility of me making friends? Slim to none...
Interview at Taco Bell Saturday..
Interview at CVS Monday..
School Tuesday.
Fuck this. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2007|01:02 pm] |
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZ
I have NEVER been so happy to be sober.
This shit is ruining my sisters fucking life.. Its no wonder why people don't want to be around her...
Sorry Mandy, I didn't mean it how you read it... Just if you only knew..and could see you |
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[Apr. 15th, 2007|05:04 pm] |
Today has been good so far.
I got up and went to church. I've been having this issue. Everytime I go to sing, and give it my all.. I start crying. I watch the choir, and I start crying.. What is my deal? I miss singing sooo much. Maybe that's a sign?
Mandy is coming over tomorrow.. FINALLY.. Geez.
I went to go see The Number 23 with Doug and Tyler. It was an okay movie. It reminded me of Anthony and it made me miss him. Everything reminds me of him. It felt weird going out with out him.. I guess I'll have to deal with it.
I saw the cutest puppy!!
He loved me.. |
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[Apr. 11th, 2007|10:12 pm] |
It was my mom's birthday today..
I waited all day to see her. I even turned down a date with Tyler.. Sorry Tyler..
I feel like shit. You know, my sister gets all upset when she can't see me.. Then when she has the chance, she doesn't want to.
I figured out why I'm not allowed to go up to their house. It's because obviously if I was to do that, I would want to go out with Mandy and her friends.
Which is so not the case.
That's the last thing I want to do.
For some reason my parents think different. Hmm I wonder why..
I think it's bullshit I have to practically beg my sister to come down here and spend time with me.... It kind of hurts..
Fuck it. When she wants to see me, she'll come down.
I guess this would be easier if I actually had friends. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2007|02:12 pm] |
I cleaned the house.. Now all I hao do is get ready.
I woke up at 9:30 and asked Pa when he had to go to work.. He said 9:30.. I was like.. Uhh What are you doing? So he rushed out the door without taking his pills. Great. So I called Kroger and told them to keep an eye on him.
As cruel as that man is to me, I really do love him. I mean, how can't I? He is the only reason why I know what it feels like to have a Grandpa. I mean, Opa was my grandpa.. But we weren't as close as Pa and I were. I kind of wish we were, though.. I mean with Opa I remember eating ice cream.. One scoop or two? And playing with his rock collection.. :> My mom's parents have always been the grandparents we were close with. It goes the same with my cousins too. This family just likes to stick together. WELL. I guess growing up, I really didn't have a choice. I lived right across the street from Do and Pa. I would come over here before school.. I remember calling Pa really early and I would tell him to take me out to eat. My mom would wake up and I would be gone.. haha.
I need to get ready.
My dad is picking me up when he gets off of work. Hopefully he gets here in time to take me up to Secretary of State. I need to renew my liscence. Woohoo! I get to be a grown up and get a real one! I think that is the only thing that has excited me about turning 21. I get a new picture on my liscence..
It's about that time... |
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[Apr. 9th, 2007|11:04 pm] |
Today was total veg out on the internet day..
It's amazing how many things you can actually remember when you're sober.
Oh yea! I wanted to look up what a dismembered body looked like..
I hate online applications.. I always feel like they don't really work. But what's the difference between doing them on a computer in the store, or at home? It just seems unfair that I can't hand the manager a piece of paper and be able to talk them into hiring me..
I've been reading this book. It's called From the Cradle to the Grave. It's a true story which makes it that much better. It's about this psycho mom that had 9 kids and killed them all when they were infants. It's okay.
I saw on the news today another guy flipped out and killed someone. My grandparents don't see how someone could do a thing like that.
I laughed and just said they're crazy.. Just like me.
Then I thought about it. Could I be that crazy? I mean.. I've done some pretty fucked up things in my life. Killed innocent animals...Choked people...Bitten people.. I'm sure if I would have drank anymore, and he wouldn't have stopped doing stupid shit.. Tim probably would have gotten hurt alot worse.. I don't remember a whole lot from that night, though...
I don't know. If it ever came down to it.. I'd probably kill myself before anyone else. Well.. On purpose at least. I don't know the more I think about it, the more I think that I could actually get that far. If someone was to piss me off enough. I don't know. I can get so out of control.. My brain is getting worse now that I've been off my medication for a few months..
I can so see myself getting admitted somewhere.
If you see in the paper about a girl who killed her grandfather, his cat, and her boyfriend.. You know it's me..
I guess it's a good thing no one really reads my journal.. |
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[Apr. 8th, 2007|08:13 pm] |
What would a normal family holiday be without crying?
So I'm just chillin, waiting for my family to get here.. Then all of a sudden my grandma says I have to make the whole dinner by myself. Then after I cooked, cleaned, and did everything by myself, my grandma thanked everyone for making dinner..
My mom said oh, it was no problem..
Then my grandma apologizes for it being a bad day and for her not cooking..
Well geeez.
I asked my dad if I could borrow money for probation and I got the response I expected. Nothing, really.. I am sick of asking him for things. I know how he feels about helping me. But no. My grandparents think he is going to help me, and get me what I need. I tell them he wont. They say.. How do you know, you haven't asked him...
I don't have to ask him..
I talked to Anthony for like five minutes today. He is really sad... It makes me sad, but I can't let it get me down..
I have my own things to deal with..
Like being fat. |
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[Apr. 7th, 2007|05:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Aunt Chelle's | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Happy Feet..The movie.. | ] |
It's was time for some quiz taking..
Haha.. Who would have known..
| You Are 50% Weird | 
Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
| Your Personality Is |
Guardian (SJ)
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
Watch Out!!
| Your Sketchiness Factor | 
You are 76% Sketchy |
WooHoo
| You Passed 8th Grade Math | 
Congratulations, you got 8/10 correct! |
High school wasn't a total failure..
| You Are Not a Dumb American | 
You got 7/10 correct.
You know a good deal about American history, but there's some basic facts you have wrong.
Time to go back to history class! |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.
Shy and private, you yearn for security.
You take relationships slowly.
You need lots of reassurances before you can trust. |
Obese huh?!
| You Are Overweight | 
Your BMI is 31.0 - a healthy BMI falls between 18.5 and 25
You are considered obese, and for your health, you should lose some weight.
Your BMI puts you at a higher risk for type 2 diabetes, heart disease, certain cancers, and joint problems.
Don't starve yourself or crash diet. See a doctor to learn how to lose weight safely.
Don't agree? Blame the government standards we based this test on! |
This is NO Surprise!
| You Are 90% Angry | 
You are a very angry person - and you might not realize it.
While you may think that you're bitter, depressed, or bad tempered...
What you're really feeling is anger.
While you may not need anger management, you may need some therapy! |
Just fun...
| Megan Elizabeth Unruh's Aliases | 
Your movie star name: Doritos Eric
Your fashion designer name is Megan Berlin
Your socialite name is Meggyolie Detroit
Your fly girl / guy name is M Unr
Your detective name is Dog Riverview
Your barfly name is Cottage Cheese Vodka
Your soap opera name is Elizabeth Lindsey
Your rock star name is Resses Corvette
Your Star Wars name is Megmar Unrant
Your punk rock band name is The Crazy Comb |
What can I say?
| You Are 100% Bipolar | 
You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life.
Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder. |
Okay okay.. That wasted about an hour..
It's time to dye eggs pretty soon here..
I had an interview at LakeBreeze down the street.. Maybe he'll hire me and I can be a waitress. If he does, then it will be so much easier to find another waitressing job.. All they want is people with experience.. I just need to find the one place that will give me a chance.
I guess the only thing that is really holding me back is my school schedule.. After the 24th I am only available after 5 Tuesday-Saturday.. Then all day Sunday and Monday..
I'm sure I'll find a job soon enough.
I can't wait for tomorrow. I get to spend the whole day with my sister!!! I miss Mandy..
Ha! Not to mention all the ham and spinach dip I can eat!! No wonder why they say I'm obese.. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2007|08:10 pm] |
AAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhh
I feel like I have taken my life and screwed it all up again!
but but but but
I am starting school and I'm living here..
And I don't even believe in JEBUS!!
You know I will miss Anthony.. I feel bad saying this, but, I kind of feel a relief now he is gone for a little bit. I'm not sure for how long.. I'm not sure if it matters. I hate this feeling.
I believe this is the start of a new begining. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2007|09:55 pm] |
Well.
Today is Wednesday.
It has been a great day.
Anthony's mom picked me up?!? And dropped us off at the mall. We walked around for a little bit. That mall gets so old. What we really wanted to do was see a movie. So we both agreed that going up to Universal Mall would be better. They always have better movies.
By the time we got to the other mall it was too late to see a movie and expect Anthony to get to work on time. So instead we played at the arcade! It was a lot of fun, actually. He won me two keychains. One is a stuffed Pink Panther head and the other one is a pink fuzzy dice.
Cute
Then we went to Guitar Center for like an hour before I made him leave to PETCO!
I have a baby ferret.. Well, not really. But Anthony said I can have her and the lady said they have been having a hard time trying to sell them.
Then I came home.. I got yelled at... But at least I have a home to go to.. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2007|08:34 pm] |
So!!
It's official.
I am going back to school. FOR FREE.
I start April 24th.
They are giving me a whole new kit for free.. That mean I am going to have two or three of everything. I have way too much stuff as it is. That's okay, free blow dryer and curling iron?! Why not?
Meh.. I am soooo tired.
I need to go find a job.. I went up to the diner today. I think I am going to make that guy hire me. He wants an experienced waitress.. Fuck him.. I'll just do it. I can do it, right? |
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[Mar. 19th, 2007|01:18 pm] |
I hope today is a good day..
I need to find a job!!
| You Are Emerald Green | 
Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you. |
| You Are a Chihuahua Puppy | 
Small, high strung, and loyal.
You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you! |
| Your Famous Last Words Will Be: | 
"So, you're a cannibal." |
How fun are those? |
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[Mar. 7th, 2007|09:56 pm] |
Today is Mandy's birthday. I hope she is having fun. This is the 3rd year in a row I wasn't with her for it.. Damn
I got my haircut today. It still isn't the way I want it..
I went around to some schools today. I found out I can go to school, finish or start over and go completely for free. How cool is that? For some reason I'm not as excited as I should be.
Tomorrow Dad is taking me to check out another school. Hopefully after that he'll take me to Anthony's.
I haven't been seeing much of Anthony lately. We are so busy and our schedules kind of clash. He is working 50 hours a week and is making more money at his job that both of mine put together. Oh well. He is the man, it's supposed to be that way.
I'll be having a bit more money now that I stopped dropping. That saves me a whole $80 a month. Which adds up pretty quickly I might add.
I don't know.. I'm tired.
I'm going to bed! |
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[Mar. 5th, 2007|10:01 pm] |
It has been quite the day!
I fucking love waking up next to Anthony. We had this really great talk last night. It was awesome.
So we had to be out of the motel at 11. We went to Old Country Buffet. I had salad and macaroni and cheese. Yum.
We did some wondering.
Went to Subway..Mm
I got green shoelaces! And a green pen that says Megan.
Then we went to the mall and I got some earrings.
I would pay to see the autopsy pictures of that chick that got cut up by her husband.. Fuck yea I would.. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2007|03:01 pm] |
Mandy's birthday is in six days.
If I had a car, and if I could leave the state, I would take her to Canada just for the hell of it.
I never got to go to Canada on my 19th birthday.. I did have quite the party, though.. Those were the days. Lots of drugs and no worries. That is until about 8 months later when the drugs weren't so fun anymore..
I have to go back to school. Mr.Mark doesn't want me to transfer. I have no way out there, though. I don't have a choice. So I have to pay off this debt, then he will release my hours. I want to finish school now, but then again I don't..
I would really like to move in with Anthony and be able to afford it. Which means I'll have to keep both of my jobs. If I went to school on top of it, I feel like I would end up not really going, or I'd quit working. Neither sound like a great idea.. I don't know. Maybe I'm underestimating myself and I'll be able to do it.
Maybe I'm just afraid to move out... I really want to, though.. I really do..
Well. I have to get ready for work.. |
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[Feb. 26th, 2007|11:41 am] |
I start my new job today. I am pretty excited!!!!!!
I also opened up a savings and checking account.. Cool...Cool..
I stop dropping as of Thursday! Woohoo!
I am starting to see things fall into place!
Yesterday I went shopping, because I love doing that. I bought Mandy a birthday present, and myself some new pants.
I'm going to call Anthony and see if he is going to move yet.. I hope he does soon! |
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